Watching some of the old videos while sitting and doing nothing makes me realize the memories from the past are still so fresh. It has suddenly made me so nostalgic that I am starting to feel will I ever get to live that life again.
I sit here on this crowded street by the lake and wonder if ever I can get a chance again to be in the hostel with my room mates and once again if we could play the song " yamla pagla deewana" and dance to its tunes as if there is nobody watching and as if it doesn't matter if anybody may be watching.
I clearly remember , what we only cared for then is to dance and make a good video which we could later upload on YouTube, today when I just happened to come across it , all of it just hit me back.
I want to go back to my hostel just for a day, to my flat and I want to feel the life and I want to treasure it, the feeling somehow has so strongly gripped me that I wonder if I will ever be able to come out of it.
I have a good life now but I just feel like I want to relive all those moments. I deeply miss my hostel and the 2 of my best years I spent in SBS.
Only I know how much I would give to just relive one day in the exact same conditions and with exact same people.
However when I just come out of the nostalgia. I realize its of the past and what I have now is because of my glorious past, if I keep going back and dreaming of it I might not have such a great future.
Going forward
New role heading off to kolkata , bigger pay checks, bigger responsibilities , independent lifestyle, more work, more stress, this is what I have to worry about now. But I still wonder will all this give me the kind of memories my past has given me, coz when I made those memories I never once thought , I just had fun and I had lots of it and here I am on the street by the lake side sitting and wondering if I am making any memories.
I guess only time can answer that.
P.S.:Once you have resigned you don't really give a damn about work.
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