Story of my life..!!

From where i see now
i don't what i am seeing

from where i see now
i don't know if i am supposed to be seeing

from where i see now
i have only hope at my side

but then i think of you my heart
and all i know is there will be light somewhere

it has taken a lot of time to come
but i know it will come by in some

the more i am tested the more is my fight
for itz against my very own might

i am standing still strong with 6 inches tall
and with u by my side i will never fall

i dont know if it is right or wrong
but somehow it seems
for what i was born

for all i know i may be wrong
and maybe i am a bit headstrong
so what i say, i will live with it in song


i feel for her who gave me life
bless her god with all my life

for there is very little i could do for her
and i wish i can somehow repay her

this is my story...maybe itz too sad
but that is what i have apprently had

and so i say

from where i see now
i dont seem to great

but yet i will take my chances
coz that is where the coin bounces

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P.S.: It seems the worst will happen...and i will be sorry anyways..

Habits- Interesting Analogy

Hey guys while reading stuff on the internet i came across something worthwhile,
Thought it might be of interest to some of you atleast..do read..



Habits are the result of our brain’s effort to spend less energy in doing routine things. This happens when the brain creates a routine out of a sequence of actions so that it can be done effortlessly. The efficient brain spends less time thinking about basic behaviors. Some habits are useful – e.g. we do not forget how to drive after a long vacation.

Habit formation is a three-step loop of cue, routine and reward. A cue is a trigger that tells your brain to go into automatic mode and which habit to use. Routine can be physical or mental or emotional. Finally, the reward tells your brain to figure out if this particular loop is worth remembering for the future. Over time, this loop—cue, routine, reward; cue, routine, reward—becomes more and more automatic. When the cue makes you crave for a reward a habit is born.

A habit cannot be eradicated but can be replaced with another by conscious effort. To change a habit replace the routine while keeping the cue and reward the same. You reach home (cue) read a book instead of switching on the TV (new routine) & then reward yourself (doing what you do while watching TV eg: having a cup of tea). The new habit has to be done repeatedly so that your brain gets used to the new habit. "If you believe you can change — if you make it a habit — the change becomes real," the author concludes. "This is the real power of habit: the insight that your habits are what you choose them to be."

Read : The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life by Charles Duhigg

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P.S.: Coming early to office has it'sown advantages.. :)

Mumbai- Seems strange

The city that never sleeps but what if I wanted to sleep

The life is so fast paced but what if I wanted it to go slow

A great career and professional life but what about personal life

A real challenge for the beginners and what then

A life full of commitments to others and no time for oneself

The trains the rush the crowd the madness the rains it’s all relentless

But I need time..i need to slow down..i want to feel..i want to enjoy

I want to live again

So little did I know it back then when I had left Mumbai 2 years ago for my high profile MBA at a premier college, I had always thought of it as going from Mumbai “the city” to Pune “the not so city” and also felt that I come from a better city with better life, now 2 years hence I find myself back in my Big City and yet somehow everything seems so out of place..

2 months since I am back here and the initial façade of being back has died down so now when I sit down and think about it I somehow miss pune. Soo I am thinking of paying it a visit soon

I want to live those memories again some time soon, Pune i am coming soon

P.S.: The Job seems to be taking it’s toll .. I feel insane 

Ohh I have soo missed Mumbai..!!

Coming back from pune to mumbai was an emotional moment...not the coming back part but the whole leaving a part of my life behind and stuff...
Although i come back as a learned man (probably that's what i think) but pune will have a important place within me..
1st day at work...in mumbai...1st day in feild...1st the in the humid climate...1st day in the locals...all my memories came rushing back...i feel like i have been re energized or something..
The rush..the traffic..the roads..the noise...the madness...i had missed it all for some time now..but

I am Back..

Not much hass changed apart from a few more flyovers...little more traffic...and some extra people...
apart from all this the city still feels the same...it breathing heavy...it's still fun...it's still full of crazy people...it still has places to hang out and sit idle...it still is a home to many dreamers out there....and still the rickshaw wala's are talkative and a source of all information....(i wonder if the Intelligence ever tried them out for information)..

But all in all the city is still Happenning...and i soo love it....
Mumbai rocks..!! as it always did...
I love my city and no matter where ever i stay in the future i would always want to be back....
Cause today i know in my heart i am truly a MUMBAIKAR...

a word of advice to my friends who have got their joining in mumbai...

Yeh hai Mumbai Meri Jaan

The very reason why you hate the city
from the beggars...to the locals...
the heavy rush...to the heavy rains...
the dirt and pollution to the slums......is what defines Mumbai...
LIVE IT.

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P.S.: 1000s flock to the city everyday and yet the city absorbs everyone..
it doesn't differentiate....it loves everyone equally...the city is not the problem...WE ARE.. 

It Open's at the END

The last episode of friends is what came to my mind when i left E-3(our flat),
The empty flat just made me remember that scene.
It was probably just not what i ever wanted to happen but again i had to move on
Today i feel if i could redo the past 2 years with all my friends and my room mates i will so happily do it,
I almost cried when i had to leave my home,everybody had already left and i was the last one,
Packing my stuff and sitting there in the dust with a few closed ones is when i realized it is really the end to this amazing journey of my career,SBS ends,MBA ends,student life ends,and so does a important phase in my life,
Got a job now,but no doubt learning will go on.

sipping a cup of tea i was thinking to myself,GOD please don't make me go through this ever again,but then am i asking him to stop me from growing,
Yes it is sad,so what.?
Emotions are very hard to understand,they don't show you the right path, they make you foolish, what has to be done has to be done is what i am making myself understand,
But so many memories
The way we talked together,laughed together,saw movies,had parties,fought and again came together,made fun of each other, will all be gone..i will always remember it...though I have many stories to tell.
But isn't life all about this moving on and going around telling stories..
"Woh jawani hi kya jismain kahani na ho".....but "kahani toh khatam bhi hoti hai na"

I don't feel good but i don't need to with time there will be a new story with new characters.
to enjoy and to,to breakup and again makeup is only human...so every now and then we are put to test...to see if we are still human..Law of nature...true story.."wink" ;)

It's been a wonderful time at E-3 specia..and today when it has all ended...i feel it has opened a emotional warehouse which i had been storing for a long time.
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P.S.:    :(   :(   I am truly SAD

Many many Wishes...!!

Seems like i have soo much to give but yet everything i do seems soo little..

I don't know what do u expect or what you want...but from what i can do...there's a little bit which you might be proud to have.

So this one's for you

 

Your birthday is a reminder,of just how special you are.

In a world that can be crazy,
You are simply a calming star.

You live your life in brightness,shining for all to see.

A positive influence,on somebody just like me.

Yes, you are special,and in so many ways.

That i wish i had you since the day i came,

So, I’m thrilled to be sharing,on your special day

This little rhyme which might seem like a pebble in a hay

May you live a million years,and keep smiling like always

While you live for all that while,do wish for my company like always

Happy Birthday!

Today as you grow a year older...i want to wish you for all the previous years when i could not wish you...

Well as i said anything i do will seem little but then this was the best i think i could offer....

 

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P.S.: May God Bless You Dear.
 

Missing my Loneliness...

Once there was a time when i used to have a lot of time for myself and for all my
creativity(as if there was any)
But anyways i used to think i am giving myself a lot to do and a lot of my mind seemed to be utilised..
and this was not a lot of time ago..just about a year ago...
My loneliness always gave me greater insight into myself  : "me time" i called it..

It always gave me time to think...and develop greater skills like writing for example...
My blogs are purely a creation of my loneliness

But today again i seem to be very occupied and very busy to do anything that i ever wanted to do...
it's like i have again come back a full circle...
From nothing-to-do TO no-time-to-do.....
My question is how did this happen....where did all the time go...and given that college runs for lesser hours now...
They say "An empty mind is a devil's workshop"
so has the devil started working in my mind...??


Point is i will never know and i will never try to find...
but then i will always complain..

but then given my nature i will try to fuse in my loneliness within my busy schedule...
Will it work or not i do not know...

but then after so many days i have again comeback to write...have i not..?
So i guess thats how it's gonna be...
So staying lonely is the need of the hour..!!
for me atleast..


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P.S.: How can i miss loneliness..??....strange is my mind..!!