Mumbai- Seems strange

The city that never sleeps but what if I wanted to sleep

The life is so fast paced but what if I wanted it to go slow

A great career and professional life but what about personal life

A real challenge for the beginners and what then

A life full of commitments to others and no time for oneself

The trains the rush the crowd the madness the rains it’s all relentless

But I need time..i need to slow down..i want to feel..i want to enjoy

I want to live again

So little did I know it back then when I had left Mumbai 2 years ago for my high profile MBA at a premier college, I had always thought of it as going from Mumbai “the city” to Pune “the not so city” and also felt that I come from a better city with better life, now 2 years hence I find myself back in my Big City and yet somehow everything seems so out of place..

2 months since I am back here and the initial façade of being back has died down so now when I sit down and think about it I somehow miss pune. Soo I am thinking of paying it a visit soon

I want to live those memories again some time soon, Pune i am coming soon

P.S.: The Job seems to be taking it’s toll .. I feel insane 

Missing my Loneliness...

Once there was a time when i used to have a lot of time for myself and for all my
creativity(as if there was any)
But anyways i used to think i am giving myself a lot to do and a lot of my mind seemed to be utilised..
and this was not a lot of time ago..just about a year ago...
My loneliness always gave me greater insight into myself  : "me time" i called it..

It always gave me time to think...and develop greater skills like writing for example...
My blogs are purely a creation of my loneliness

But today again i seem to be very occupied and very busy to do anything that i ever wanted to do...
it's like i have again come back a full circle...
From nothing-to-do TO no-time-to-do.....
My question is how did this happen....where did all the time go...and given that college runs for lesser hours now...
They say "An empty mind is a devil's workshop"
so has the devil started working in my mind...??


Point is i will never know and i will never try to find...
but then i will always complain..

but then given my nature i will try to fuse in my loneliness within my busy schedule...
Will it work or not i do not know...

but then after so many days i have again comeback to write...have i not..?
So i guess thats how it's gonna be...
So staying lonely is the need of the hour..!!
for me atleast..


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P.S.: How can i miss loneliness..??....strange is my mind..!!

Is it LOVE...??

What is the most simplest question which almost always is expected to be followed with the most complicated answers....such answers that to hell even if newton were to solve the puzzle he would take days together...

Come and relieve me...

And for all that i know it's not even a question....
Itz those 3 words.....those magical(hypothesize) words....
Which makes you check you heart rate....
Which almost always comes as a surprise....
Which everyone saves till the last...well most of em doo....
Which covers up all your past pains....(only to give you new one's)
Which by now you have already figured out....
But u still wanna make sure...don't you....?
You know the thing but you still want it to be crystal clear....

ok letz save it for now....

Now there exists another similar set of three words....closely associated with it....
It's as they say...."I LIKE YOU"
soo it's like ehh??
I like a 100 people....i dont goo around and tell it to those 100 people....but i can....
And so i did to you....coz i thought you ought to know.....coz i thought the friendship was there...
But that's not how you took it did you....??
You thought i was crazy....and i thought it was my mistake....
You thought i meant something else....but i did not....
Which i even tried to clear but you did not allow me too....
Soo truth be told....it was you who erred....but gone was "our" friendship....

But the problem here is "like" is almost always followed by the "i-do-not-want-to-say-it" word....
and soo when you leave things unsaid....it gives no solution....it only makes things worse....worse to understand....and worse to confront....till one fine day....you blow the lid off....

So then whats the relation between....
LIKE and "i-do-not-want-to-say-it" word...
well apparently for some itz none....
and for others it's the difference between just-a-way-to-express-yourself and last till eternity....
and soo some doo express and some do not....

Soo next time someone gives you the LIKE word.....
please do not mess it up....cozz itz not what you think it is....
just wait for him to say....what you think he means to say....maybe he may not say it ever....
or lets just say....clear it out....while you can....

Coming back to where it all started....
So now that we all know what the question is....let us know....why is it soo complicated....
Is it coz of the pain associated with it or is it just plain foolishness....
Whatever it be....truth remains the answer has to be complicated with about a million something words....

But the point is how do you know the difference between the 2 words.....
like and "i-do-not-want-to-say-it" word....
well i have already given it....if you are expected to answer long and strong with a million words....you know what it is....and if not....den itz probably not as much deep and definitely not worth anything to worry about....

P.S.: I just Like You...!!!

1.36 in the night...

1.36am  in the night......Rendezvous with my MIND!!..

what are you doing??...wasting myself...
what could you be doing??...reading marketing...
why are you not??....i do not know...
whatz the point??....there is a exam tomorrow...
how was the exam today??.....i relished it
what was so special??....for a change i choosed the questions..
dont you want to sleep??...probably not...
what do you want to do??....watch a movie...talk to someone
with whom??....depends on who is awake
who do u think is??....dosent really matter...
will she be awake??...how should i knw
why dont you call her??.....i dont want too
what might be she doing??....who's the she!!...probably sleeping
whats on your mind??...am i not good?
what do u think??...wht more is it gonna takee....
are you serious??...i dont think so....or do i...
watz the plan??....not to have a plan
where do you go from here??...nowhere
is der a solution??....i wish der was...
who can help??....only she can
what do you do??....wait
how long??...as long as it takes...
what will happen??...time will tell...
are you happy??...for the moment...yes
huh??....chuck it!!
who are you??...the KNIGHT
who am i??...you are just you....the one for others
do you exist??...only in your thoughts...
what makes you live?...she does...
are you sure??....nope
y r u confused??...coz i dont plan...
what is the problem??...everything
do u wanna talk abt it??...not with you...
then wid whom??....maybe with her...
fine i am going to sleep....fine i will just ponder around...
forget it you are insane....tell me something new..

and then itz all a hazy dream..
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P.S.: Who is the She??