Missing my Loneliness...

Once there was a time when i used to have a lot of time for myself and for all my
creativity(as if there was any)
But anyways i used to think i am giving myself a lot to do and a lot of my mind seemed to be utilised..
and this was not a lot of time ago..just about a year ago...
My loneliness always gave me greater insight into myself  : "me time" i called it..

It always gave me time to think...and develop greater skills like writing for example...
My blogs are purely a creation of my loneliness

But today again i seem to be very occupied and very busy to do anything that i ever wanted to do...
it's like i have again come back a full circle...
From nothing-to-do TO no-time-to-do.....
My question is how did this happen....where did all the time go...and given that college runs for lesser hours now...
They say "An empty mind is a devil's workshop"
so has the devil started working in my mind...??


Point is i will never know and i will never try to find...
but then i will always complain..

but then given my nature i will try to fuse in my loneliness within my busy schedule...
Will it work or not i do not know...

but then after so many days i have again comeback to write...have i not..?
So i guess thats how it's gonna be...
So staying lonely is the need of the hour..!!
for me atleast..


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P.S.: How can i miss loneliness..??....strange is my mind..!!

Sitting in my Office...

Just when i was starting to get used to working here...when i was starting to get comfortable with everything around me...it's time to leave...
Yes our 2 months of internship are almost to over now...or letz just say...my time at Business Development Bureau is fast coming to an end.....and i see all other interns of different colleges have already left

Just 2 more weeks to go....and then it will be back to college again....
which i have missed very much....specially the sleeping in class and the fun....
I wonder how the first day is going to be.....

Neways working at BDB was a very enriching experience....now i am not sure if i would be coming back post my internship here....but clearly thats not on my mind....i did what i wanted.....i had fun....learnt a lot....had the maximum opportunities and will come out as a learned man....nothing else i asked for....
But just for the record...yes i will get my stipend too...

But there are somethings which i am going to miss....
letz see what....some might be amusing too...

I am definately going to miss the responsibility i was vested upon....
I will miss gawking over the HOT chick in branding....i think her name is khusboo....and rightly soo everytime she passes by i can smell the aroma....
i am surely going to miss the ATC(any time coffee)...
Then there are the other interns who have already left........my mentor's who taught me work here....the meetings in the meeting room...my desk....my PC....and the systems guy Sharad....
And also the "chachiya" employee Amogh...
the coming late and then making excuses...the most delicious veg cheese grill sandwich at a restaurant nearby(well this one i can have again...but still)....
The free food and petrol allowance....
the laughing and the talks in a hush-hush tone.....
The jumping at the first chance to go out on field.....My company paid trips to Karnataka,Mumbai and now Chennai....
The feeling of coming home after a long day at work...
And yeh in between maybe sometimes i might miss the work here....
But above all i am going to miss the Sunday holiday....which we used to get...

Yes i did learn quite a few things out here....but more than anything....I have instilled great confidence in mee....because i am more sure now that if vested upon a responsibility i will do good....not that i was doubting that...but now i am more certain....
The experience i have gained out here is highly regarded by me...for this i would like to thank my mentor's for giving me the opportunity to handle complex roles....
I even played the role of a undercover information extractor....or to make it sound cooler...letz say a SPY...

Did i do justice?...well i tried my best to do soo....
Am i happy.?...ohh yes i am...!!
soo is this the end....i think so...or maybe there might be a last surprise....letz see 2 weeks to goo...
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P.S.: For the first time...i have got absolutely no work to do...in office...and i think Khusboo just smiled at mee.....shit!! such a despo... haha

Coffee @ BDB

What could be better than getting a hot sip to drink at regular intervals...or say just when you want one.

Yes work here at BDB is more or less the same...and for a few days in the recent past life has just been like a hot sip of coffee...

The first sip when we do not know how hot the coffee is and then the soothing warmth which it brings when you are having the drink...and finally the freshness which it puts you in.....to take on the worldly matters.

Working at BDB has been more or less the same...

Whenever i get a new project it gives me the same feeling...

My mentor always scares me...makes a mountain out of a simple job....but then lately i have learnt to understand his tone...

Any new assignment which i am given is just like this hot sip of coffee which burns initially....takes me off guard.....disturbs my moods but then when i start working somehow things just happen and finally when i am through.....it gives me immense confidence to face the new hot cup or rather a new challenge...

Soo coffee at BDB  like work at BDB...

P.S.:Itz coffee time now....and mohan wants to do all the work now....saala chachiya...